May 12, 2010

Blog Layout

Ok, yes I have really slacked off again, but I am a FACEBOOK junkie LOL.. plus there is a wonderfully talented woman ♥KIMMI♥ that is going to redo my blog!!!!!!! YAY cause I hate this layout/look! So as soon as she gets to work on that I will definatley start using it a lot more. There is sooo much to update you all on, and I promise to do that!!!!


HUGS

February 16, 2010

February Already

Wow it is February, and as usual I have slacked off on keeping this updated, I am really bad that way as you can see. But in my defence I have 3 facebooks I use, Marlena's , Dave's and mine of course since Dave and Marlena never login to their sites, so I do and play their farmville's since I am addicted to it =)

Lets see where to start... Dave has gotten worse with pain, depression and his moods, it is very rare he is having a good day, spends most of his time in bed, sleeping or seeing his mom at the hospital, it is hard for me to see him like this, but I understand. The lawsuit is not going the way he was hoping, Manulife is trying to screw him of course, making his life even more miserable. His depression scares me, thankfully he sees a psychologist, but I am afraid she can only do so much since his happiness is non existent. I will keep you updated more on this as much as I can.

Marlena is doing great however and she is always the shining light in our lives. She brings us great happiness and if it was not for her I am not sure Dave would keep holding on. Although I know he loves me more then life, Marlena is his rock to hold onto. Without her he would give up totally.

Rebecca and Darian are now living in Oakville which is a much better place for them to be, their last living situation was not a good place for Darian, and we wanted her the heck out of there as soon as we could. Not sure she is too happy about not living in Hamilton where her so called friends are but we really do not care, Darian is our FIRST concern and where they are now is a lot more safe and clean for him.

As for me, I have my days, some days I wonder if our lives will get better, I would love for Dave not to have to worry financially, I do what I can, but him being Dave he worries, he wants the best for us, what great husband/father wouldn't? But we have made it this far and we will continue to do so, I will not allow Dave to suffer with more then he needs to. And Marlena deserves the very best, she deserves to always have what she needs! Not always what she wants =)

So that is the quick update, I will try to give you more when I remember!
Hope everyone had a wonderful Valentine's & Family Day!

December 21, 2009

HIya

Wow...... 4 days until Christmas!! EEK, I really am having a hard time believing it is here already. I finished wrapping all the gifts tonight, as well I wrapped Marlena's Birthday Presents so those are one more thing I do not have to worry about doing.... I am not feeling in the Christmas Spirit yet, I am not sure I will either this year, but I hope by Christmas Eve I do.... Marlena is having a sleep over tonight .... she asked if Megan could stay the night since I have to babysit them until midnight as Brett is working the 3-11pm shift , and then back in first thing in the morning 7am-3pm.... so I told her it was fine, much easier on the kids then having to wake them up and drop them off here in the morning at 6....

Looks like we are going to have a VERY full house on Christmas.... I believe we figured 21 people, and because of this, mom called the insurance company and demanded they get their ass's in gear and get our carpet installed RIGHT away as there are things in the garage we need out before 21 people show, so they are coming Wednesday to install the carpet, THANK GOD! This crap has been going on since August.... GR, Dave's brother is heading over here tomorrow to start cutting in , and paint the ceiling, but won't be able to get the colour on the walls until after the carpet is in, so he will have to be realllly careful when painting that he does not slop any on the new carpet..... But once it is all done it will look so good!

Dave has had a horrible few days =( I have barley seen him this weekend, he has not been feeling well at all, and in pain, his leg has been causing him a lot of problems again and slipped on the stairs the other night, I tell ya... I worry everyday that he is going to flying down the stairs, scares the shit out of me. I feel so bad for him, but there is nothing I can do to help. He tells me to not let him sleep so long but if I don't he is horribly cranky with everyone around him and it just makes me want to leave him alone and go... causes a lot of problems between us, although he apologizes for it later, I cannot help but feel like crap when he is cranky. I just have to keep telling myself it is not his fault. And wait it out until he has a semi good day, although they are getting less and less =*( The one who suffers the most of course is Marlena, she rarely gets to see Daddy, do anything with Daddy... you never know from moment to moment what kind of pain or mood he will be in .. so we kinda have to wait and see which really sucks. But we all do what we need for people we love! I will keep you up to date of course....

Well it is almost midnight, I need to get to bed.. I need to get up as Sherri is dropping Cameron and Patrick off at 7:30am.... UGGGH... I neeed a week off ! LOL

December 18, 2009

FRIDAYYYYY!

Hiya again all!!

Well I have not done too bad, my last post was Monday! YAY ME! =)

Dave went to his Psychologist appointment, he was there a very long time, came home in a complete mess, he was a wreck =( He went straight upstairs and did not come down for awhile, when he did come down you could tell he had been crying.... All this stress with the insurance company, the pain, and worry is really doing a job on him mentally, it is really too much =( I am afraid he is going to have a severe breakdown, I am sure he has already had one but not on the scale I am worried about. I really feel bad for anyone that is going through this crap or has gone through this crap, and this is all because of the insurance company screwing honest people! But I guess it is people that try to screw them all this happens!!! Regardless it is not easy on any of us! We have to live day to day on making plans as we never know what kind of pain Dave is going to be in one day to the next so making too many plans ahead of time is always a bad thing. Usually it is just Marlena and I who attend or go through with any plans. And it SUCKS!

On another note, Michelle from the local tim hortons we have got to know really well and she and Marlena are soo cute, soon as Marlena sees she is working she runs in, around the counter and her and Michelle hug.. so Michelle has been buggin us to babysit her , well last night was the night, she took Marlena to the mall so she could shop for mommy and daddy, they had a great time together, Michelle stood in line for close to 2 hours waiting so Marlena could see Santa.... They even had dinner together at the mall =)

Hard to believe Christmas is almost here, it really does not feel like it.. I just don't have that Christmas Spirit this year.... I wish I did but I just can't get into it. I put on a good face for Marlena of course =)

Marlena gets out of school today at 1:45 for two weeks!!!! Going to be nice to have her home with us, I love when she is home! Wish I could home school her, lol but then she would miss out having new friends.... so I gotta suck it up and send her off Monday - Friday... boo hiss =)

Andrew is suppose to be moving in with us in the New Year!!!!!!!! His mom and Step Dad have separated and his mom's place is toooo small for him , his mom and his step brother, and he does not want to live with his step dad, so he is moving here!! YAY!!! At least that is the plan at this moment lol

Rebecca and Darian are suppose to come out today but I am not sure Dave is able to go and get them, he is having another rough day, he was up with me at 7:30 this morning but was moving realllllly slow and said he was heading back to bed, this is where he spends 95% of his time. Poor guy has no life, the pain is too great for him as well as the depression. He is not the guy I use to know anymore, he has no "life" left in him, he is unhappy .... I cannot remember the last time I seen him really Happy... guess it is kind of hard when you hurt all the time and have to go to court to fight for what you deserve!

Anyways I guess that is all for now.. I will hopefully post more sooon!!

December 14, 2009

No Appologies....

I would apologize for not posting on this for quite some time, but I have done that many times, apologized and still slacked for weeeeeks on updating posts! LOL SO I am sorry I am not apologizing!

SO hard to believe that Christmas is almost here.... It sure as heck does not feel like Christmas. As long as we get SOME snow for Christmas Day I will be happy , then it can all go far far far away!

Backing up a little.... We went to Marlena's parent teacher interview and all went very well, she is doing good in school and she LOVES her teacher to pieces. Grades are good and her teacher is working on bringing up her math marks =) So there are no worries on the school front =)

Mom, Gus and Fabian will be here her at our place for Christmas ...; but we will be doing it boxing day, I have told them I will make a roast of beef and they are happy with that since Gus and Fabian are not big on turkey at all. Well this was all until Dave's mom decided she wanted to have her Christmas dinner that day.... so now I have to talk to Dave's brother and see if we can figure things out so I am not stressed over it all.....

Dave is SUPER stressed today, in pain, tired and looks like he is about to just give up. He had his lawyers meeting today, he has his appointment with his psychologist today at 4, and he is real sore and tired.... he always gets stressed when he has tooo many things to do and is tired and sore, he was up a lot through the night again last night, so much so he was up making Marlena breakfast and when I got up he made me an egg.... he is getting so very frustrated with this whole situation, WE ALL ARE, fighting idiots to prove he is in pain and he is in need of financial assistance, when he has been paying into it, well through his pays he has, freaking insurance companies are not there to help they are there to make things worse for the people who need it. Because of all the shit he is going through he decided to start talking to a psychologist.... he should have been doing that over a year or more ago, but all this pain and depression is not getting any better, it is in fact getting worse, he sees no relief in sight and really scares me most days.. Sleeps for days on end, snaps at me, at Marlena at friends, rarely speaks.. and stares off into nothingness thinking of when doomsday is coming. I am glad he is getting to a psychologist , he needs to talk to someone.. anyways most of you all know what he goes through on a daily basis, and how I try and stay calm and not let him see his nastiness and always sleeping gets to me, it is not his fault.

In other news, the kids are out of school this coming Friday at 1:45pm for Christmas Holidays !!!! YAY, although I wish it was not soo soon in a way, again like I said it does not feel like Christmas!! I keep praying Dave has a REAL good day for Christmas Eve and Day. But time will tell, and I hope and pray no one comes down sick with a cold....... it is always a worry of mine every year , especially with Marlena, I do not want her sick for Christmas !!!

Mom's 54th birthday is 3 days away! WOW that is hard to beleive, she does not at all look her age! We got her a Gift Cert for one of her favorites stores!

ANYWAYS that is all for now I will TRYYY and post more sooon! MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

October 18, 2009

Yep slacked off again!

EeeYEP! I am horrible I have not updated my blog in a long time, and you can thank Face book for that, DAMN addictive thing.. I apparently have a wicked addictive type personality and I need to pace myself lol....

There really is not a shit load of things new on my end anyways, same crap different day... daycare which is actually one of the things that make me happy along with my daughter and husband =)

I am super tired tonight it has been a hella long weekend of running around and getting things done, laundry, trying to tidy up here and there and I seriously have to get my ass in gear to clean up the backyard and get things packed up and covered for....... winter... grrr....

Still have to pull down the winter clothes and put the summer ones away, but again that required energy, which I do not have!!!!

I hope all is well with everyone????

October 03, 2009

Facebook

Yep I finally am back on face book, I have had a lot of friends ask why I am no longer on it... so after a year and a bit I am back on =0)

Dave has been real sick the last few days, been in bed , has not really come out... I told him to go to the walk in since I figured he either had bronchitis or some kind of chest infection with the way he was coughing ... finally after harassing him today and pulling the "If you don't go then next time I am sick and you want me to go I AM NOT GOING EITHER" he finally went LOL... and sure enough it is a chest infection he has, so he has been put on antibiotics as well as a puffer. I am glad he broke down and went, I am sure it would have gotten worse and he'd be in real trouble... he has enough problems with pain daily and his back that this on top of it was not a good thing. He is actually up tonight and almost back to himself... nice to see him in an upright position! =)

Marlena, Mom and I went to get our nails done today, Marlena got her nails painted bright orange with black pumpkin, and of course not even 10min after getting them done she had to use the washroom... hahahah... yep she wrecked the one pumpkin, thankfully they fixed it! On the way home we stopped at Wal mart, while there we got Marlena a new snowsuit, $50 and she is good to go, we also decided to grab her some gloves while we were at it... All that is left is new boots and a hat...

So we got home, I just started cleaning and got the laundry sorted and what do you know, I got a call from Brett, he was real upset, his daughter Megan was at it again, getting into things she knows she is not to get into... opened a mp3 player that was suppose to be for Christmas and took it out and lost some pieces... destroyed the basement couches by putting the cushions, pillows and blankets on the floor, as well as took a cucumber and chopped off 2 HUGE pieces and decided she did not want it anymore... needless to say I went right over and made Megan clean everything up, find the pieces she lost and got her to pack a backpack for a night at our place, she is currently sitting in the kitchen where she cannot see the TV... She was allowed in the dining room to have dinner and then back into the kitchen she went to do her homework and sit. Of course she is bored but she seems to be fine with it all, it's like nothing ever happened. Normal Megan. I have told Brett that he HAS to get her to a counsellor or a psychologist, that she needs to have this so she can sort things out in her head since her mom's death ... I must keep on him about it.. she seriously needs it!

Mom is out on another date with... umm.. lol I forget his name now, she has 3 different men on plenty of fish that she is seeing here and there, like she said, at this stage in her life she is in no hurry to settle down with just anyone, anytime soon.... YOU GO MOM! =)

Well I guess that is it for now... nothing else really new on my end,.....
Have a great weekend all!

October 01, 2009

ALMOST FRIDAY! YAY!

Hey All;

Well the bathroom is 98% done... flooring and baseboards are the last things to do.. but as it stands it looks totally awesome!!!!!!

We had another leak, seems the faucet was leaking, GGGRRRRR..... But we have as you have heard from me before about our amazing neighbours/friends.... Trevor and Dave (Natalie's Hubbie) came over and ripped apart our wall, cleaned it up and fixed it... THANK YOU GUYS.... Josie and Natalie came over and kept me sane.... I was stressing over the mess and the dust, plus I felt horrible that Trevor and Dave were wasting a Sunday at our place doing repairs and then putting up drywall and such. They did an amazing job and we appreciate all they did! So now we have to go and repaint , the main floor hall, up the stairs and the upper hall. Although we were planning on painting all that in the next year or so, we did not want it done this soon, it is true what they say, when it rains it pours =*(

SO I finally got in to see a dermatologist about my wart on the bottom of my foot that I have had for close to 3 years now.... my doctor sent me to see her since she did not know what more she could do for me... anyways this is what she told me:

Warts are caused by a viral infection called the human papillomavirus virus HPV. The HPV is contagious and can be passed from person to person by either direct or indirect contact. The virus can also spread from one body location to another on the same person. The virus enters the body through an area of skin that is cracked, peeling, or moist. The amount of virus present, the location of contact, and the state of a person's immune system are all factors that determine if an HPV infection will cause a wart to form.
EEEK as soon as I heard HPV I got nervous, but she assured me it is not the one I thought, that there are other strains of HPV and a wart is the MILDEST one .... WHHHEW!
Anyways.... Plantar warts grow on the pressure points on the bottom of the feet, and large numbers of these warts may cause difficulty with walking, running, jumping, and even standing. Several plantar warts can cluster together in one area and are called "mosaic warts.” Plantar warts usually resemble a thick callous, so it is a good idea to have a physician diagnose that the growth really is a wart before treating it.

OH and by the way:

The Wart Root Myth, Contrary to popular belief, warts do not have "roots". They only grow in the top layer of skin, the epidermis. When they grow down, they displace the second layer of skin, the dermis. They do not grow into the dermis. The underside of a wart is actually smooth. I got this information from my dermatologist and then got it here for anyone to read:
http://dermatology.about.com/cs/warts/a/warts.htm
Anyways, she cannot do anything about willy (my wart) since it is too inflammed, so she gave me cream to use and when I go back to see her on the 13th she is going to zap it....

Now that you are totally freaking bored with my wart story and information..... lol

*thinks* OO I am not sure I have told ya about the other 2 kids I am now looking after 2 days a week, Cole (22 months) and Tessa (11 months). Omg they are awesome kids, love them to pieces, Tessa is my little huggie, she is so affectionate. Cole is running all over the place having a blast with the other kids. Needless to say I really enjoy watching them! Their mom (Robin) and dad (Charlie) are awesome, Robin is a hell of a lot like me, she has an awesome sense of humor. Patrick and Cameron I of course still have, but Cameron is in school, Monday's , Wednesdays, and alternate Fridays , full days, and he is doing super well, he looves school. Patrick is my buddy, he is one of the happiest kids I know... a real joy to watch.

I am off next week and I plan *NOTICE THE WORD PLAN* to get a lot of things done around the house .... clean up the backyard, get things ready for.. uhhh..... *grumbles*... WINTER.... getting all the plants covered with burlap. Dusting... and get ALL the laundry done up. Yep I need to win millions so I can get a landscaper to do all this stuff outside LOL....

Anyways I have rambled on enough.. I am beat and I gotta get my ass in bed. Have a great night all!

September 26, 2009

I am T I R E D!

Hey everyone;

I am so wiped that I can barley post this, but at the same time I wanted to get this post in before I neglect it for another day.

Tomorrow (well really as of now today) I hope to get the bathroom totally finished, if not really freaking close to it. I will be sure to take a picture of it as soon as it is all done, it is sooo awesome looking now. Just have to finish sanding a few spots, paint, put in the floor and VOILA we are done! THANK GOD!
The guys came yesterday and started the decks, and came back today to sand and stain them, although they did a good job at applying the stain, Dave is not really impressed with the sanding job, there are far too many small splinters, and he does not want anyone, especially the kids and dogs getting them into any parts of their bodies, so he is calling the guys tomorrow and demanding they come and redo the sanding as well as a coat of stain. I sure as hell hope that there is enough stain left, we already needed to pay them an extra $70 for stain. Anyways I will letcha know how that one goes.

Marlena is asleep on the living room floor here and has both dogs laying beside her.... they are out like a light. I think it is getting veeerry close to my sleep time also since I am having a wicked hard time staying awake....

Ok so what is it with kids..??..?? You tell them you have to go out to get a few things and that they are not getting anything this time out, that we are going out specifically for household things, and they agree, until you get there..... then of course it is like they really did not hear what you said and they start in with the asking, and asking, whining, asking, sulking... then you reach the checkout and it starts alll over again with the whining and asking ... sulking and asking, asking and pouting. Then once out to the vehicle (USUALLY) they totally do a 360 and are acting like nothing happened?? Good lord I was ready to stick Marlena on a hanger along with price tag, I was not in the mood for the crap. She usually knows when she pushes Daddy or I too far... not a good thing as she spends time in her room for that, and although it is a room with all her toys she seems to be miserable, I guess in their mind they are missing out on things like parties we have while they are sulking in their room, wondering why their life sucks soo bad, or how she thinks we do not love her because we sent her to her room. Yeah life is rough being 8.

We went to Marlena's open house at school last night, it was great to see her teacher and talk with her, as well as see what the kids have been working on. Marlena's teacher totally loves Marlena and said she looks forward to her walking into the classroom every morning with her huge smile. She said that Mar is a total joy to have in her class and that Marlena seems to have her laughing quite a few times throughout the day. So it was all super good news, and she is impressed with Marlena's progress so far... YAY!

Well I guess that is all for now, I am falling asleep typing, thankfully I do not have to look at the keyboard to type =)

Hope you all have a great weekend! I know I will.... we get to sleep in, we have nothing planned for this weekend that needs us to get our asses up early! YAY!

September 23, 2009

HumpDay

Ok so we got a few other quotes and we have chosen 2 guys to come and do it. Really nice guys, and they are going to do exactly what we want for $600. They also promised they would not leave until we look over it and make sure it is what we wanted. They seem like they are going to do a wonderful job! They called this morning at 7 to let me know they are going to pick up the stuff they need and would be out asap, depending on the rain of course since they do not want to seal moisture into the deck. They also wanted to fix some of railings in the back yard to make them more stable. So it should be done in the next week depending on the rain.

Bathroom is almost finished, the shower looks AMAZING, and paint has been applied, a few places have to be fixed up and we need to find a new mirror.... do the floor and baseboard and then it is done, I will be sure to take a picture!

Marlena is home today, she was up coughing most of the night and coughing when she woke up this morning so I thought it best if I keep her home today, her allergies have been acting up also, she has had a little bit of red eyes and a lot of sneezing .. so I thought it best to keep her home.

Dave is not feeling great AGAIN, he went to bed Monday night at around 10:30 and got up here and there for a drink and what not and back to bed, he got up this morning so he could do some things for his mom, but you can tell he is not feeling well still and could really handle some more sleep.

Well that is all for now! Will post later! Have a great HUMPday all!

September 22, 2009

AHHH ONLY TUESDAY!

Ahhh... only Tuesday.... BLEH! I really wish it was Friday, this week is draggin and it is far from over! We have finally gotten some rain! And I do mean SOME, it has been 20 or so days since we had some and it was definatley needed. We are suppose to get more today, and it seriously is looking like it......

I HATE rain days, especially when the kids are stuck in the house we all get sooo bored. Ohwell we cannot really complain, could have been a summer full of rain....

So we had a guy over the other day to give us a quote on sanding down and putting a protectant on our deck... hahaha he can STUFF it, $1100 to do it and he is NOT willing to put on a clear coat, ONLY colour.... although I told him we do not care as both decks are coming out in the next 2-3 years..... SO screw that, we are not paying that nor did I like him much!

We have another couple people coming to give us quotes, one of which is a 23 year old kid who really needs the money and will take $400 for all... problem is , I have no idea if he knows what he is doing and if he has any tools to do it.......

I gotta go they are here to quote!

September 15, 2009

All is good in the neighbourhood

Well we have seen Keegan, and although his head looks horribly sore, he is doing awesome! Leanne is back to the level headed Leanne we all know and love and Keegan is smiling as usual.
I was very shocked to hear that he has the stitches removed Saturday, I figured they would have dissolving ones but nope! I do not want to be in Lee's shoes for that one let me tell you.

I am again over at Nat's this is definitely my second home. Really enjoy hanging here with the kids and her, it makes the day so much more enjoyable and goes a lot faster!

I got a call today from my cousins ex girlfriend, she asked me if I still do daycare and if I do would I watch Aidan, who is 22 months. I of course said yes and told them to come by anytime to meet the other kids and see how things go around here... I told her that there is so many kids between Nat's house and mine that Aidan will not be bored, he will get a lot of interaction and playtime. They were ecstatic and could not wait to get him over here. SO they should be by this week at some point =)

Well I gotta go , kids are done their lunches and almost time for naps!

Have a great day!